I am seriously considering picking up everything in my life and moving away! My dad has offered me a wonderful oppurtunity, which is that he is going to give me a thousand dollars to get me moved out and then pay my rent until I get a job and I can pay it on my own.   I am really considering it. Here is the problem though I want to move to Nashville, which is not a bad idea, it is only a three hour drive from where I am now, so it would not be that big of a deal.  Plus moving to Nashville gives me so much more oppurtunities to prusue my dreams.  Most of my auditions are in Nashville. All I would have to do is get a good part time job, with really flexible hours and an apartment then I would be set, but I am so scared that I will fall behind on my bills and I will fail miserably. 

Also, I want my boyfriend to move with me, so that we can be together, but I think that would be out of the question. He doesn't really want to move out right now because we would struggle so much, but if he had a good job and I make it with my dreams then we would be ok.  Thomas also thinks that it would help me any further in prusuing my dream. He doesn't want me to just jump into it just because at the moment this is a good idea and then later realize that it was huge mistake.  We have argued this until we are blue in the face.  I just can't agrue anymore, just way too much stress. I just want to move on with my life and become an adult and do things for myself instead of having my dad help me!  I'm just scared I'm not going to make it!

If I do make it though, I want to eventually move to Los Angeles to try and see if I can make it there, and I really do understand that it is extremely hard and the world over there is so dog eat dog, but if I ever put my mind to it I can achieve my goals, and my goal is set pretty somewhat low right now, but I eventually want to make it into a huge goal.  Well who knows maybe everything will be ok!! I will just have to see.  I think I am going to hold off for awhile and see how things go.